Life Scar

//You can never feel what is gripped in your hands until it hurts you//


MISSING (KEHILANGAN) --- 28/03/2007

was morning
she left
'balik kampung'
the 'makcik' said
eternally leaving
me

she
as cracked glass
with
lacy skin
as she told me
'tinggal kulit'
wrinkly soft
plastic

she curved
a static bow
of her ending role
gentle
movements
of aged elegance
an air of frailty
fragility
as
a whithering bud
in cool wind

i smelled her
of full blossoms
yet dry
triggered senses
and
warm tears
i closed the world

is evening
off and on
i
am broken
another
and another
restless sleep

empty
i close my mind.

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[1] 'balik kampung' - gone home/ lit. 'going back to village'
[2] 'makcik' - old lady
[3] 'tinggal kulit' - left of only skin (skin and bones)

In loving memory of my great-grandmother. I miss you.